I'll be damned if I sit back and let you settle for the load of crap you've been fed over all these years! I am going to keep this short and simple.
Too many have died because they had PTSD but never understood what it was.
Many have suggested that dropping the D from PTSD will get the stigma out of the way. As if you are afraid of a letter after surviving war. The D is for "Disorder" meaning things in your mind were once in a certain order but after the traumas you survived, things got bumped out of place. You can put it all back in order again, just not in the same way they were before you left home.
No one is ever the same after combat.
Far too many do not understand that "trauma" is actually Greek for "wound" and if you look at it that way, you understand that it hit you. Any shame in getting wounded for your country? Any shame in risking your life for the sake of those you were with?
As for asking for help, consider combat itself. You had no problem at all asking for help fighting the enemy forces. So why have a problem asking for help because you did all that then? This time you're battling for yourself so that when you are stronger you can battle for your buddy and all the other veterans out there going through the same hell.
If you are veteran over the age of 50, you are among the majority of veterans committing suicide.
If you do not get the help you are looking for, keep looking until you find it.