It is hard to read the sign in the distance. As you come closer,
the words come into focus and you are more aware of the danger.
Most of the time, it feels like I am driving down the road I've been on for 35 years. I know the road well enough to remember where the potholes are. I know what it is like when the road is slippery and how to control where I am going. I even know how to avoid boulders blocking the road. What I don't know how to do is get bad drivers out of the way!
PTSD Patrol is about taking back control over the road you're on. You have no control over where you have been, any more than you have control over what shape the road you are on is in. No control over traffic or bad drivers getting in your way but you decide how to get to where you want to go.
You can decide if you just pull over to the side of the road for the rest of your life, or find your way out of the valley. You decide what you are willing to settle for and what you finally understand is a possibility of having a much better life.
See, the thing is, while it is painful to live the way you are now, it is familiar. Being in harms way was familiar. Right now you may be too afraid to change direction again, but that is exactly what you've been missing. You can change right now!
If your online with anyone pushing the "awareness" crap, close it because it is nothing more than another closed door in your face. If you want to heal, you have to learn that it won't be easy. A safe bet is that it isn't easy right now.
Here are a couple of videos that may help. Some are about 10 years old, so the numbers have changed since then, but the message is still the same. You can heal!