When service turns into suffering
Combat PTSD Wounded Times
January 26, 2019
Why do people decide that they are willing to take jobs that could cost them their lives? Did they just wake up one morning and think, "I'd die for that chance?"
Whenever it happened, whenever they went to begin training for the jobs dedicated to saving lives, or defending a nation, that is exactly what they decided was worth it.
Now, all of us can understand when what they try to save us from, changes everything for us. So why can't we understand what all the times they do it, does to them?
How oblivious are we? How self-centered are we when we ignore what those jobs are doing to them? We get PTSD from one traumatic event. They get PTSD from far too many of them. Then they have this twisted thought that they were supposed to be better, stronger, and beyond reach of the residual demon of destruction.
More to the point is, how oblivious are the leaders of the men and women suffering, that they do not see their jobs cause more deaths than doing the job itself?
More in the military die as a result of suicide than die doing their jobs.
More die in the National Guard and Reserves to suicide than die doing their jobs.
More Police Officers dies to suicide than dies doing their jobs.
More Firefighters die to suicide than die doing their jobs.
According to the CDC, suicides in America have continued to increase. While some want to suggest that since it has happened to everyone else, then, it is just the way things are. As pathetic as that thought is, what they do not acknowledge is fueling the loss of lives.
These men and women decided that saving lives was worth dying for...but their own life was not worth fighting for anymore.
Why? Who gave them that impression? Who allowed the thought to penetrate their brains that they were supposed to just suffer silently instead of turning to all the others they served with to help save their own lives?
Would they do whatever they could to save one of their own?
The pain is running silent, angry and deep. It is time to look in their eyes and tell them that it is time to #BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife because this time, the life needing saving is yours!
Barry Manilow - Read 'em And Weep
LyricsI've been tryin for hour just to think of what exactly to sayI thought I leave you with a letter or a fiery speechLike when an actor makes an exit at the end of a playAnd I've been dying for hours trying to fill up all the holes with some senseI like to know why you gave up and threw it awayI like to give you all the reasons and what everything meantWell, I can tell you goodbye or maybe see you aroundWith just a touch of sarcastic thanksWe started out with a bangAnd at the top of the worldNow the guns are exhaustedAnd the bullets are blanksAnd everything's blankIf I could only find the wordsThen I would write it all downIf I could only find the voiceI would speakOh its there in my eyesOh can't you see me tonightCome on and look at meAnd read 'em and weepIf I could only find the wordsThen I would write it all downIf I could only find the voiceI would speakOh its there in my eyesOh can't you see me tonightCome on and look at meAnd read 'em and weepI've been whispering softlyTrying to build a cry up to a screamWe let the past slip awayAnd put the future on holdNow the present is nothing but a hollowed out dreamAnd I've been dreaming foreverHoping something would eventually comeI saw your eyes in the darkI felt your kiss on my lipsI traced your body in the air'Til the bodies were numbWell, I could tell you goodbyeOr maybe see you aroundWith just a touch of a sarcastic thanksBut now the rooms are all emptyThe candles are darkThe guns are exhaustedAnd the bullets are blankAnd everything is blankOh it's there in my eyesAnd coming straight from my heart
It's running silent and angry and deepOh it's there in my eyesAnd it's all I can sayCome on and look at meAnd read 'em and weepSongwriters: Jim SteinmanRead 'Em and Weep lyrics © Carlin America Inc